Love Poems
Confession!




I have to confess something to you God
my heart is floundering a bit..
I know I have someone dear..
and I know I cannot betray..
but why do I feel myself..
drifting another way...
I don’t know whom to blame..
my thoughts, my heart, my loneliness
or my continuous attraction that way
sometimes I think.. I should just leave
as who am I deceiving..
I have to go back one day..
so why not just leave now..
but this stranger..
just seems to be so my own
that giving it such a name..
I feel myself disowned...
I am in ceaseless confusion
as to why there is such a feeling
when I am not blessed by the presence
till then.. I am in boundless misery
for every moment I have free..
and even that which I have not
I long for that hand to be in mine
I know I’ll hurt many by speaking
but am I doing justice to anyone
whilst staying silent..
can it be.. that I can keep this gift
which without I am not at all sane
and with which being near..
I sense that I rule a kingdom
. it is like having a pot of gold
without being allowed to spend it..
Dearest God... please calm my soul
for now after confessing..
I have found myself in a lake of tears..
Lord.. why do we not get.. what we need?